Roller Coaster of Emotions

Some days I am happy.

Some days my cheeks hurt from smiling. My sides ache from laughter. I am so overcome with joy that part of me wants to sprinkle glitter everywhere I go.*

Then some days I am the total opposite of happy.

Some days I get completely frustrated. I feel lost. Hopeless. I break down crying. And then I become completely numb. To everything and everyone.

Recently, my days have been like the latter.

I’m slowly climbing my way out of the darkness.

I can see the sunlight.

And feel its warmth on my skin.

I’m not ready to run through the wild flowers yet.

But I’m getting there.

Photo by Arbine Villanueva-Hoapili

*Which I would totally do if it wasn’t such a bitch to clean up.

P.S. I’m taking next week off from blogging. Gonna be spending some quality time with my family and stuffing my face with fluffy malasadas.

Inside Out + Me

Yesterday my family and I watched Inside Out. In short, I loved it. I cried at least four times during the movie and at least once during the short Lava which came on right before.

Inside Out really hit me in my core, especially since I have children. Even though I know that I can’t stop them from growing up, oh, how I wish I could.

For a few more years I just want them to reach for my hand as we start to walk down the street. I want them to get excited when they show me their latest refrigerator-worthy crayon drawings. I want them to make up stories about being Jedi and Princesses. I want them to hug me so tight that I can barely breathe.

All I need is just a few more years.

Or twenty.

Photo by Arbine Villanueva-Hoapili